Day one of labor inducement... the doctor put a gel inside me and asked me to go back home (hotel) and to come back in he morning ( the gel is for the softening and dilation of the cervix)... I was in pain all night and only had about 2 hours of sleep... day two-... the doctor decided to add more gel and sent me home with no pain meds.... even more pain and not much sleep.... day three- .. balloon dilation... the balloon was inserted and then blown up to about 4 cm to help me dilate... he also tried to break my water but had no luck.. then sent me home again...with no meds...I was tired and in a whole lot of pain! I was getting annoyed, to put it lightly!
Day 4- Drip Drip Drip from 10:00 am to 11:00 pm.... nothing but a whole bunch of pain... by this time I was like what the hell?....sent me back ....yes I was sent away again.... and back on the drip in the morning....no sleep..........
Day 5-... here comes the real pain.... back on the IV drip... and another doctor decided to try to break my water again....oh did she ever.... and I quickly dilated up to about 7 cm...so we all thought OK... day 5 better be la day!
the pain started to go from my front to my back....and the contractions were getting closer and closer...I had to lay on my side... they were getting so close and so painful and I didn't have a break in between them....so I was holding on the the bed rail....breathing screaming and shaking...mom said I almost ripped the rail right off....OK TIME FOR MY EPIDURAL!!!! .....I never, I mean NEVER felt that kind of pain in my life!..... my mother and husband had to leave....when they came back they said...ummm what did you do with the crazy lady in pain....lmao.. OK they were lucky I was feeling wayyy better!
OK now I started to push.... and from what the nurse told me I was doing a great job....push.....push....pushing?? ... then the doctor came in and noticed a little meconium ..that means lets get this baby out!... push push and more pushing but her head was going back up... more than usual....so he decided to try using the forceps...that didn't work... NOW WE STARTED TO PANIC.. I was getting tired...and the doctor called in a few more nurses..and he wanted the end of the bed off now!..It was not coming off..IT WAS STUCK..so my husband ripped it off and threw it in the hallway....then I herd something.....I herd my baby cry, a muffled cry? ..and I asked my husband and mom and they said they herd it too.... I don't know what happened to me but I lost all my strength..and I had the doctor yelling at me....I then grabbed Gilles shirt and said WHATS HAPPENING??? but they pulled him away....I had a nurse pushing on my stomach...one yelling at me to push for my baby...and another one almost sitting on my chest trying to get her out??? and all I could do was try to push....but I had no strength and I couldn't breath??? I was just looking at the wall??? finally they got her out...not sure how?? but she wasn't breathing....they finally got her brething but had to take her away and Gilles asked me if he could go too...I said sure...I don't care??? I looked at her and said meh??? and in my mind I said...whatever she isn't mine.........
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